I’m not feeling ready to head back to work tomorrow at all. Although perhaps it sounds asinine, I somehow thought that with the new year I would magically feel pumped and motivated about returning. But alas, I do not.

Mostly I feel trepidation. I’m fairly sure there will be very little easing back into the flow, as we eased into the holidays with a slow taper. I think we’ll start tomorrow with a full plate.

I’m trying to have excitement and anticipation and thoughts that this is the turn-around year, but my damn realism is kicking my ass.

My only resolution for the year was to be my best version of myself (gah, corny, I know), but I think if I can just manage to stop sabotaging myself, this year might turn out alright.

I rang in the New Year exactly as I wanted – game night with friends, moderately tipsy, kissed my husband at midnight, was home and in bed before 12:30. Today I slept in late, shopped for groceries, dyed my hair (chocolate cherry feria ), watched the criminal minds marathon, installed 5 expansion packs (got a nice lot of them on ebay for cheap) for the sims2 (which i still prefer to sims3). Now it’s getting late and I’m watching Bones and sitting here under my blankie with the heater pointed at me.

Overall I’m okay that today was low key and didn’t include anything particular different. I’d like to think that 2010 is going to be similar, but better in it’s own due time and in ways that I can’t see yet.

Suburban Sunset

Yes, I’m still enjoying taking shots of the sky with my cellphone.  but I missed a great one the other day while crossing the Hwy 98 bridge- darn husband and his concern for my safety over blurry cloud shots.

The winds seem to have shifted, and it’s (at least momentarily) downright chilly out.  I like it for now, but I’m sure I’ll bitching soon enough.

Otherwise, despite my efforts, my days are overly filled with work and thinking of work and how to make work better.  Sometimes it feels worthy, but it’s still a struggle.